Greatly looking forward to three weeks of peace, quiet and solitude in the mini session of my program we call track 1.5 during which most people fled Beer Sheva to study Torah in Jerusalem, clean toilets on an army base, or find some sort of spiritual connection in Tsfat... I, however, decided to stay in Beer Sheva for three more weeks of desert life studying Hebrew, volunteering, and simply hanging out. I unfairly had grandiose visions of catching up on pleasure reading, getting ahead on Hebrew vocabulary, digesting the past three months of life in Israel, and (deep breath) thinking critically about plans after Otzma ends in June. Well, not surprisingly, I never found this boredom or alone time I longed for. At least not enough. I, not surprisingly, kept myself busy by volunteering at day cares, traveling as much as possible, and spending time with friends.Our coordinators envisioned these three weeks as a cultural experience for the five of us who chose to stay in Beer Sheva, and although I'm not sure that I would title it a "cultural experience", it did provide me with a bit more autonomy and space to breathe than I have since arriving in Israel in August. On top of our usual schedule we went on "field trips" to the Airforce Museum and to the Israel Museum in Jerusalem. The Israel Museum had a model of what Ancient Jerusalem looked like, some interesting sculptures and a few rooms of modern art- which I frequently view as a lame attempt at art- clearly not my cup of tea.
I have to interrupt myself and address the fact that I am writing from a big plush booth at a popular coffee shop which is presently swamped with people coming in and out. The most adorable little girl with golden brown ringlets, big blue eyes, and fingers and cheeks absolutely caked in chocolate and crumbs just climbed into my booth and sat with me as I am typing. Her mom looked at me, looked back down at her magazine, and continued reading leaving her child sitting with a complete stranger. Not that I look threatening by any means, but would that ever happen in America? So what do I do? Of course I pull up pictures of Chloe to show her while she giggles and barks at the laptop screen. Only in Israel...
I spent a few afternoons at a Moadonit (after school program) for elementary school age children during Chanukah because there is no school during the holiday. These kids were fireballs of energy and so much fun to play with. They repetitively confused America for Africa as they would introduce me to their friends as "Sharon from Africa" and had a hard time understanding that I don't understand Hebrew completely perfectly. Over and over again they start out speaking slowly and pick up the pace until I can't catch anything. When I stop them to clarify a word in Hebrew that I don't understand, they explain it to me in even faster paced Hebrew. I merely nodded and threw in a word or two to show that I was listening- even if I didn't understand. It amazes me how creative, energetic, and heartwarming little kids are all over the globe.
Last week Jessica and I went on The Big Field Trip with Acharei, the program for high schoolers before the army that I train with twice a week. It was a big field experience putting together everything we have been working towards. It was three days of sprints, push ups, trail running at night, traveling with stretchers on our shoulders, bad food, sleepless nights in the bitter cold, and more push ups and sprints. I honestly cannot believe that we did it. When I think back to the first night when we sprinted for hours and ran in the pitch black desert with stretchers bearing 150 pounds of rocks and dirt until 3:30 am, went to sleep at 4, rose at 6am to navigate and find coordinates spreading over 10-15 kilometers in the desert sun and so on... I can't believe we made it. The second night we went to bed at 11:15pm, woke up at 3:15 am to begin filling bags with rocks to pile on the stretchers for "The Big Journey," they call it. A 12km trek over rocks and sand which ended at Ben Gurion's grave at Sde Boker. To toot our own horn, we did a great job and went above and beyond what we could have done to get by. Although there were other girls on the trip, most of them didn't pull their share carrying the stretcher or what have you... but I give them credit, too. How some of these frail girls make up and hair done survived at all is beyond me.
Every one says that getting through experiences like this is all mental, and while I believe them the black and blues on my shoulders beg to differ. Much of the experience was humorous. Why Jess and I, two American girls who will never be in the army, were there to begin with is funny in itself. Why we voluntarily subjected ourselves to this torture was beyond me. When it was painfully cold, or we ate a dinner consisting of a baked potato and a cucumber, what could we do other than laugh? When we were told, again, to sprint to the top of the peak because we weren't in formation quickly enough, what could we do other than laugh? When the commanders shouted out orders that we didn't understand and we were left standing clueless while everyone else took off... or perhaps more humorous was that we adopted the attitude: when in doubt, take off in a sprint or jump down into "matzav shtayim" (position two: push up position). While this frequently worked, on occasion the commanders would be seemingly scolding the group and at what seemed like the proper "go" mark we turned around to take off only to find everyone looking at us like fools because he gave no orders at all. Again, perfect reason to laugh, right?We made it through the hard journeys telling funny stories and pulling each other along on this challenging, amazing and meaningful experience for both of us. I am lucky that Jess had a really really tough time and wanted to throw down the white flag and go home. It gave me something on which to focus my energy. Needing to be optimistic and encouraging to someone else made it easier for me to make it. I guess that is my nature... being strong for others helps me function in adverse situations. Anyhow, this field trip taught me a lot about leadership and teamwork in ways that I haven't experienced before. Beyond what any school club or sports team has ever taught me, and I am so grateful to have gone. It also further solidified my perceptions of the differences between Israelis and Americans. Mostly that Israelis are the toughest people on the planet. Period. At the end of the trip when it was reasonable to be exhausted beyond the ability to function, some of the guys would have told you that it wasn't tough at all. The ability to function under immense pressure and stress that is seemingly innate to these kids is beyond me and I dream of having one minute fraction of their calm and togetherness.
Mom, Dad, and Howie and Elizabeth are coming to visit in exactly one week and I can't believe it. I'm so excited to see faces from home and spend time with my family that I am beside myself...
















